They say, “Imitation is the most sincere form of flattery.”
As Christians, we are called to imitate Jesus. But imitation without love is just flattery – i.e. meaningless empty excessive praise.
There’s a constant struggle between my head and my heart. Love for God should come first and the imitation will follow. But there are moments, days and even weeks when I’ve flip-flopped these two. I join the chase for perfection and trick myself into thinking I must appear perfect so I can point to God. What?! That is so silly now that I see it in print. But it’s really the lie I let myself believe.
History shows that He uses the most imperfect and unlikely band of heroes to save the world. His own son was born in a stable smelling of manure for crying out loud! So my house doesn’t need to look like it belongs in a magazine and my dishes CAN be dirty! And every picture on my Instagram feed doesn’t need to have perfect light and kids with their hair and make-up……. did I just say kids with make-up!? Wow. (I’m not saying anyone does that, it was actually a slip, but sometimes kids on Instagram do appear like models…how!? My daughter wears mismatched clothes everyday and her hair looks like a bird nest half the time.)
…AND my schedule doesn’t need to be full of speaking engagements in exotic places and meetings with publishers who want me to write a book. That does happen for some. And I know a few of them and God is using them to change lives…mine included. But that is not the path God has chosen for me…and frankly, I really don’t want that life. Writing a book is freaking hard. Ask my friends, Lara or Kristy. I am more of a Pioneer Woman or Ashley Ann wannabe. There. I said it! I struggle with envy of other bloggers while I sit in my pj’s at 7 am sipping tea waiting for the chaos of my 3 kiddos to start. (Yes, my kids sleep until at least 7 now. Annnnd now some of you envy me…sorry.)
Rant ends here.
So…. Anyway. Sorry about that. Back to the point. I don’t need to have everything in my life all in a row. Goodness knows I can’t even get my kids in a single file line! Don’t they say, those who can’t play, coach? Well, that’s Christianity. None of us are all-stars. We are not making it pro. We have all fallen all over the court…sorry I’m slipping into sports analogy.
The important thing is to simply FOCUS on loving God and acknowledge we are imperfect and perfection is UN.A.TTAIN.A.BLE. We will not be perfect until we fully know God, which will be when we are with him body and soul after this life is over. God is working in our hearts, but his work is slow (to us, at least). I am learning that one of my biggest struggles is being patient and accepting his process.
“Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” Psalm 27:14