Our house faces due west, so the sun rises over our back yard. This morning, as I sat in my chair facing a window into our front yard, I could see the beginnings of a pink reflection on our street. I took my tea and went straight to look out a window into the backyard. The sun was just peeking over the fence-line. Breathtaking. I don’t care if you like nature or not, a sunrise like that is better than any Monet or Rembrandt.
Mornings are my favorite time of the day. I was born a morning person, but after I had kids, I lost some of that super power. Now, I set 3 alarms, and I still cannot seem to swing my legs around the side of the bed by 6:30am. But God is so good, He makes the sunrise later in winter so those of us who miss it in the summer, get to see it in the winter when we need more hope that the sun is up for at least a few hours each day.
In the morning, I find quiet. Peace. Distractions are on “do not disturb.” There are few interruptions. I can FOCUS. People 100 years ago did not have so many obstacles to mental focus. True Story.
For the past 4-6 months, God has been calling me to slow down. I stepped down from the Board of Directors of Toloha Partnership and I started to hone in on a few things, rather than spreading myself so thin.
When I started the One Word to Change Your Life reading plan from the You Version Bible App with other Pursuit ladies around the world, it was pretty clear what my word was going to be for 2015: FOCUS.
At first, I doubted…”that word is so open-ended and could apply to hundreds of things.” I just made myself laugh. Hundreds of things! That’s just how unfocused I am.
I am a dreamer, a visionary and I have hundreds of ideas and I can’t choose which one to follow. Fortunately, Jesus tells us exactly what to choose. In Luke 10:41-42, Jesus answers a very distracted and distraught Martha, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken from her.”
The things Martha was troubled with were not bad in themselves, in fact they were very good. She was serving the Lord. The problem was she was troubled with the responsibilities and details of serving. She was not focused on the hope, the honor, the wonder, the awesomeness that Jesus was sitting in her home and she had the privilege to serve him.
I can’t even imagine. But I can relate. I would probably be stressed out, too. But I want to be like Mary. I want to first focus on God. It’s funny, there have been times in my life when I did keep my focus on Jesus. It was then that I felt as if I were flying through the details of the tasks he called me to do. I knew the big picture would get done and I was able to accomplish each task that that was imperative to complete. There is work to be done, yes. But the question is when I’m doing the work, am I worried about whether it is enough or whether it is perfect? Or am I listening to Jesus teach while I’m working. Am I letting my hands and feet do the work while I’m gazing at him. Am I taking the time to ensure my focus is on him and not myself.
That is what I am… focusing on…FOCUS. (Sounds funny, I know.) Like, I said that could apply to a hundred things, but it all starts with focus on Jesus.
I’m still working out how to do this, but it definitely starts with sitting at Jesus’s feet – i.e. reading the Bible, praying and spending quiet moments seeking and waiting for his guidance. I’ll keep setting 3 alarms, and hopefully by the end of the year, I’ll stop focusing on how tired I am get up with the first one.