Routine vs. Consistency

I have recently realized that I thrive in a routine, but I stink at consistency. I have always struggled with being consistent.I can probably count on my hand the number of things I have semi-succeeded in habitually practicing. I play the violin, and when I was in middle and high school, I had the opportunity to be in two amazing symphonies: the Youngstown Youth Symphony Orchestra and the Boardman High School Orchestra – the latter being the largest high school orchestra in the country that consistently wins the national championship. My teachers always told me I had natural talent, the perfect fingers and a musical ear, but I never practiced enough. I should have been a great proficient (as Lady Catherine de Bourgh says)! The lack of practice kept me from strengthening and training the muscles in my hands and arms and so when audition time came, I choked. My nerves beat my habits cuz the habits were never formed. Back to the present – I would really like to develop better habits, and I think my husband and I are finally realizing we have control over this… we can choose to be consistent in our practices. He had an epiphany a couple days ago that maybe he ought to start seeing himself as an adult. It’s funny, I’ve always thought he thought he was an adult, but he said that he doesn’t really view himself any differently than he did when he was 17. He said something like from the time he turned 17,  he tried to act 25 and then when he passed 25, he didn’t know...